Relief

I wrote about how I started back on naltrexone and of course… the dreaded nausea presented like an old enemy I hoped would disappear. She gave me hell the first day, a little less the 2nd day and today I’d say it’s a 10% annoyance. So the fingers are still crossed that this is the right way I have to take it, at night, a partial dose, with lots of ginger and lemon water and ginger gummies on hand.

I can say that after 3 days dry I feel otherwise fine. No other withdraw symptoms - again, knock on wood. I feel a little lighter and the guilt feeling is not there. That is probably the biggest deal. I don’t feel like I did something wrong to myself or anyone. It’s not like I was going around hurting anyone. At least not intentionally, but I was definitely hurting myself, just the mental beat down everyday.

The worst part though has been the sleep. I didn’t realize how much alcohol did for my sleep. It took me over 3 hours and that’s with 2 doses of melatonin to fall alseep the last couple days. Then only to waking a few hours later and another 2 hours to fall back. This is not ideal but hopefully will resolve after my body gets used to sleeping without the wine.

I think the other disrupter that is coming is the sugar load change. Wine has a lot of sugar. My favorite Sauvignon has 4.5 teaspoons per bottle. I could definitely drink a bottle. The average adult should have no more than 6 teaspoons (25 grams) a day! So if I am sucking in 4.5 grams just from wine, not counting food… I have no idea what total I’ve been intaking. Luckily, I don’t eat sweets. I can forgo any dessert or treats but salty foods are my favorite.

Still blood tests were clear and fine on liver and even my cholesterol but my blood glucose level was just under prediabetic. And there is no way I want to go there!